I am a people-pleaser by nature, but other’s opinions are often, an idol in my life. When the Lord asked me to begin this marriage blog journey, I had no idea that His intent was to help me shake off the fear of people’s disapproval. He has orchestrated this by encouraging me to share my own weaknesses. Over time, that has now become my heartbeat for this blog, although it is never easy or fun.
About six months ago, He laid something huge on my heart to share. A mistake from my past that I regret with everything inside of me. I fought Him on it… hard. I kept asking the Lord, “What is the point of sharing something that happened so long ago? Does it need to be brought to the surface now?”
Even today, with the post written and published, I still don’t know His exact reasons for wanting me to share my story. It could be used to benefit others or it could be for my own humility. You see, less than five people know the truth about my secret because most people only know the lies I have told regarding this matter. I justified my lying tongue by falsely concluding that the truth would ruin my witness and public confession was pointless. However, the truth is, it has been my people-pleasing idol that made me afraid to share! In fact, fear of disappointing someone or losing their respect has gripped me this morning.
Even still, my secret is out!
Today, I am guest posting over at To Love, Honor, and Vacuum where I share, from my heart, three lessons I learned from the greatest regret of my life: having pre-marital sex.